It has been just over three months since the last time I wrote in my blog. Many things have happened during a great summer here in upstate New York. My girlfriend will start her PhD in two weeks. We are already settled in a nice, comfortable apartment in a small, quiet town.
Unfortunately, my career as a graduate student is totally in chaos. I really do not know whether I could or should continue with fundamental research. Research is a too big ask for my current ability. Fundamental research requires a solid foundations in math, physics, statistics to name a few. Certainly I have not mastered the fundamentals well enough. I know I must rethink my career.
In the next 9 months, I will try to regroup by doing three things. First, I will study mathematics and physics from scratch, starting with Calculus, Classical Mechanics, Linear Algbera up to Electromagnetics, Integrated Circuits, and Stochastic Processes. Second, I will study Computer Science from ground up. I will learn C++, algorithms, data structures, web developement, etc. And lastly, I will try to read as many books as possible. After this period, I will try doing research once more and regardless of the result, move on with my life.
As usual, I will give this huge project a name. I will call it Before Sunrise, as “it is always darkest just before the dawn.”
Let me believe that it will be beautiful when the sun finally rises next year.